*tired*

So tired.. Sian.. I dun lyke wat i read.. Seriously man.. i feel lyke bashing up tt bitch..I m pissed to the max..Let me release sum anger here..*though i noe tt bitch wun b reading* Cum on lah.. U tink wif ur stupid character.. things will laz fer u? hah.. U simply sux.. U dun even deserve to haf ane frenz.. I m amazed to see tt guy still treating u as his gd fren.. no.. itz juz becuz he is ignorant.. Ignorant of wat u haf been doing behind his back.. F**king backstabber.. Juz watch out.. U will get it frm me.. U beta nt let me see ur freaking face.. i m going to make it more deformed than it has been. juz watch out..

okay.. i haf gotta cool.. this is so freaking pissing.. hais.. why are ther such ppl? i dun get it.. hais.. wateva lah.. oh wells.. todae went sch slack.. On the wae to lot one.. me n von were singing in the rain.. Kinda happy then.. xD then went lot one walkwalk.. saw lao da.. seriously.. i miss U! haha.. paiseh din haf time to tok.. nxt tyme muz cum out toktok ok? actuali gt alot of things to tell u de.. but hais.. hope to see u soon.. =) take caree ya?

Gotta go ler.. buaiz

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hMm.. actUali i shld be at my seC sCh celebrating mid-autumn festivaL wif my freNz de.. buT.. cuz i dUn waNa sEe sUm pPl theR.. *eyesOre* i deCide to staY hOme.. oh Wells.. aNe waE i m stiL siCk.. dun waNa geT ane wOrsE bY sEeing thIngs i dUn lYke.. =/ sUmting realI piSs me oFF!! wHu tHe hEll iSh shE to aTtenD my sCh feStivaL ceLebratiOns?? sHe iS nOt a bpIan.. waD aN insuLt! *hmmpH*

oh weLls.. gona calm down.. hmm.. todae went sch early in the morn.. haha.. wus supposed to attend geog lect. but ended up me going home after handing in my Gp file.. haha.. then noon went swimming.. wif ster, despite the forecast abt the sunspot thingy.. ended up me n ster are sun-burnt.. heheh.. die ler lah.. gona hurt! *sobX*

oh wells.. me gona slp liaO.. tMl goINg stuDy haha.. hopefuLly i caN conCentraTe.. i miSs the oLd me..=(

140905

Heheh..kinda long time nv blog liao..hmm.. wells.. recently damn busy wif coping stress.. n lately i m dwn wid flu.. three days liao.. still no beta.. Hmm.. todae came online to do my gp stuffs.. Dying ler lorh.. i m feeling so sick, juz wana go rest.. but can't.. *sobx* oh wells..

Todae had econs test. heheh.. it wus pretty easy.. haha.. i din study leh.. ACHIEVEMENT.. haha.. oh wells.. then got humanities club miting todae.. haha.. so fun.. cuz.. when the pres n his gf werent ard, there wus so much club bonding.. heez.. i m so proud of my club! i shall be organising a mahjong cum cards session after the promos.. haha.. oh wells.. i still tink itz pretty freaky of gim siong to link history wif cards and mahjong.. haha.. his history knowledge is extremely power.. i learnt one hist knowledge todae.. "hitler's fav teacher wus his hist teacher" oh wells.. had a nice chat wif the slacker teacher in charge as well.. Wus toking abt the unbeatable.. haha.. there is more bonding to cum.. haha..

hmm.. i gona log off liao.. my flu getting worse.. no time to rest properly lorh.. hais.. hopefully can update soon.. i m tired.. dun wana try anemore..=/

A memorable CIP =D

Gim siong, Kelvin, daniel *always posing fer the camera* >.< Gim siong, kelvin n daniel lee *nt again o.O"* The Guys of Humanities Club Me, cheuk n CY *heheh* Ginny, Shaofen, Yvonne, Yanxin and the three guys again

Here are the group photos of our club.. heheh.. Humanities Club Rox !! =D

A memorable CIP =D

sho cute rite? me helping the kids to brush their teeth *heheh* Lunchtime *yum yum* Naptime =) colorful mattresses !!

You all muz be wondering.. What did we do at the childcare ritE? haha...We had musical chairs.. it wus reali fun.. Kelvin n i took turns to lead the actions..heheh.. Bet we reali look very retarded bahx.. wells.. i had fun.. i guess he did too.. the children were quite obedient n were lots of fun.. love them lots..

oh yar.. kelvin has gt an admirer.. haha..

Besides having fun, we each "adopt" a child n went to the playgrd.. N went fer a walk.. hand in hand.. hmm.. After which, we went back to the childcare fer bathing time.. it wus great fun.. Den we assisted or rather, we supervised lunchtime.. the children are pretty independent.. i simply love the part when they prayed before eating.. So cute.. After lunch.. wus naptime.. their mattresses are reali cute as well.. heheh.. me n kelvin were so tempted to zhan4 wei2 ji2 you3.. heheh.. >.<

A memorable CIP =D

Alright.. More cute pictures here.. Yvonne & Hongyi Them again.. wid petrina n shumin in the backgrd Me and kaiwen.. he is eating a slice of apple.. heh Guan yu and Shaofen

A memorable CIP =D

Todae.. I had CCA-initiated CIP.. heheh.. Went to this childcare.. Kids are sOoo adorable.. they simply melt my heart.. Had lotsa fun wid the kids.. N of course, we had sum bonding within the club.. Finali i feel a sense of achievement..=D Will upload all the pictures taken.. Starting with my fav =D *heez..* n the moz adorable of all.. heehee.. Cute cute de kaiwen =) Daniel, Ghim siong n kelvin playing wif the kids Aren't they adorable? May i present the BIG BABY of the club... *drum rolls* I seriously tink ghim siong enjoyed himself more than the kids

KidS rOx!

my klasmates: liyi,peiling,eileen,suxian yvonne & me stars on the wall!! shO nicE.. Frm left: shuping, sharmila, yvonne n me mE & eileen

Ysd went to the childcare at shenton way.. haha.. had lotsa fun.. babies are so adorable.. kids are so cute.. heez.. oh wells.. those were the pics taken at the place.. it wus a great experience.. n i m shure tt everyone had fun rite? =D

phOtOs fer teaChers' daE=)

my secondary frens:zhijun,siewling,shaofen,jieying,mabia,jieyingShaowei & edison acting cOol with two chiobus in the backgrd: mabia & celest darLing shaofen & retrOgurL mabia shaofen & zhijun Shaowei showing off his gold medal..mabia n celest in the backgrd=)

photographer: xiN~

Photos taken on Eileen's bdae =)

my kLasmates:shuping,yvonne,eileen,suxian,florence,peiling yvonne & eileen *the bdae celebration at kbox* yvonne & eileen posing fer the cam while singing Say cheEsE!! one last shot =D dun they look as though they are advertising fer darlie?

pS: i m the photOgrapher=D *bigbig grin*

310805 *pre-teachers' dae*

todae.. went sch fer teachers' dae celebration.. Had mass dance.. hmm.. it wusnt reali nice lah.. cuz alot of ppl duno the steps.. haiz.. hmm.. well.. the celebration wus nice.. kinda similar to bp culture.. muz b becuz of celest.. haha.. niceenice.. esp the performance by shaowei n edi.. so NICE!! haha..

after everything, bpians gathered n we rushed back to bP.. it wus pretty empty.. heheh.. saw mr chiam.. he called me "XIAOHEI"!! wat the.. o.O" Saw alot of ppL.. reeali miSs them sOoo muChie.. hmm.. then went lot1 wif fen, 2 jieying, mabia, tingni n siew ling n ate at pizzahut.. then went to watch "drink drank drunk".. a chinese comedy.. itz kinda touching as well.. i cried.. heheh.. the male actor very shuai!! *heez* after tt, me, fen and mabia went to kbox.. haha.. very fun.. n hyper.. haha.. muz go again after promos!! i dun care..=D

sumtimes, i reali find life so unfair.. but fortunately, there are always ppl whu cares=)

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Oh wells.. todae, i tried to find back the old me.. i went back to the very place tt i once used to go alone.. yup.. alone.. but haiz.. still.. i crashed into the very person tt i din wana see together wif his gurl.. nt tt i hate tt person or anething.. juz tt i m scared tt i mite break down again.. I m trying very hard.. to forget everything n all.. but still nth seems to work fer me.. i m so so so tired.. Juz now minghong msged me to ask me get back up on my feet n stay strong.. true enuff.. i shldnt run awae frm stuffs.. i m trying.. n i m tired already.. I noe i kip saying tt i m alright now.. n behaving as though nth has happened.. but duno y i still care.. Ster, i m sorry.. i juz cant seem to let go of this.. =/ haiz.. y am i letting this affect me so much? this is juz so shitty=S

oh wells.. saddening case no 2. juz saw suhui's msg nt long ago.. She has withdrawn frm pj ler.. haiz.. another fren whu understands me is gone.. haiz.. Well.. but she seemed kinda happy abt it.. so.. i guess.. i shld b hapi fer her as well? Suhui.. u gona b hapi.. n rmb, no matter wat u do, think carefully..=)

oh yar.. todae.. received ster's msges.. kip thanking me fer the card.. haha.. ster.. wat're frenz fer? i m juz glad tt u are hapi.. hmm.. tml gona spend wif whu wor? haha.. wan me help u ask *emmhmm*? haha hmm.. well wish u an early happi bdae darLing=D

Recently, i m beginning to feel the promos' stress becuz of the ppl ard me.. but still me.. you xin wu li lidat.. Juz cant seem to get in the mood of studying.. this is juz so nt fair! Why am i suffering the consequence of sth tt i did nt do? haiz.. maeb itz all my stupid fault bahx.. i duno.. the other dae.. neSsa told me sth.. tt gt me real confused.. tt dae, i wus supposed to haf a photo taking session.. but ended up i cldnt smile at all.. i cldnt even fake a smile.. fer the whole dae, i cldnt conc.. everything juz sux lah..

i juz wana b hapi.. is tt too much to ask fer?

memOrabLe dae --- 240805

heheh.. Ysd wus oni a memorable dae.. haha.. ysd wus my gd gd fren eileen's bdae.. Went wif von, liyi, n eileen to kbox... haha.. fun FUN FUN!! haha.. liyi sing song very nice.. so sweet.. von n eileen very hyper.. me oso very hyper.. we ended our session wif our fav song.. haha.. n we were jumping up n down.. haha.. so fun.. haha.. long time nv enjoy myself so much ler..=D muz go again sumdae.. heheh.. after promos, it shall be..

oh wells.. todae wus pretty ok.. kinda tired fer the whole dae.. tink ysd hyper too much ler.. ended up very exhausted.. haha.. hmm.. after sch, went shopping wif yvonne.. heheh.. bought lotsa nice nice stuffs..=D tml i gt a bigbig duty to carry out.. heheh.. =Pp oh wells.. tml gt maths quiz.. haha.. dun feel lyke studying.. haha.. oh wells.. tml going out wif vON!! haha.. looking forward to it.. heez.. me reali veri slack.. tsktsktsk.. gd luck to me..

mE gtg ler.. oh yarh.. muz wish my beloved brO.. HAPI BURFDAE bOi! hope u n ur darLing can quickquick b tGr..=D

200805

Heez.. Wanted to blog ysd de.. but when i reached hm, i wus so damn tired.. then i went slp early.. so nan de.. heheh.. oh wells.. ysd wus quite a nice dae bahx.. hMm.. i went sch wid irene then check out the hse games.. haha.. saw *emmhmm* name ther.. haha.. oh wells.. todae is the games.. but then hor.. me too piggy ler.. cldnt wake up early in the morn.. sheesh.. sho sad..=/

then.. i spent my breaktimes in sch wid fiona n peta.. had a wunderful lunch wif them.. then help fiona wif her econs.. i wusnt reali much of a help i tink.. haha.. hmm.. oh wells.. had a very exciting panel discussion during gp.. haha.. luff until my stomach almoz canot take it.. *wahahaha*

After gp.. me n von stayed back.. chatted wif ms lee.. fer a long long time.. then ms kat came n exclaimed " i din noe yvonne n jiaxin can b so talkative!" den both of them started toking abt how quiet we are in klass.. mE quiet?!?! haha.. ttz a big joke lorh.. oh wells.. then after 3 hrs of chatting, me n von finali headed fer cck stadium.. haha.. we were going crazy on the wae.. n took the wrong bus.. haha.. when we finali gt on the correct bus.. we felt so relieved n we started singing on the bus.. haha.. but when we arrived.. haha.. the place wus closed.. so we ended up sitting down..eating n singing at the same time.. haha..=D so fuN!!

Gona go out sOon.. haha.. i wana b hapi!!

180805

hMm.. todae wus practically a "OK" dae.. haha.. nth much bahx.. let me recall.. hmm.. ysd.. wus kinda in a foul mood.. thus i din haf the mood to blog.. oh wells.. ysd had a supposedly cca "miting".. Can u believe it? A miting held fer less than 3 mins.. whoa.. i tink the president can go fer the guiness bk of records ler.. hah.. Sory fer the sarcasm.. oh wells.. ysd went to tok to my geog teacher.. heard tt ther is another club setting up this yr end.. she is attaching me to it.. fer the projs.. hmm.. but i m tinking of going ova.. cuz the present club i m in.. is going to collapse sooner or later wid such a "WUNDERFUL" president.. hah.. so yar.. anewae.. i haf confidence tt i will make the new club a beta n definitely more successful one.. haha.. always having so much overwhelming confidence.. haha..*bleah*

Okay.. enuff of the sarcasm.. hmm.. todae went sch.. haha.. me n von were going crazy fer the whole dae.. toking abt "superstar"show.. haha.. junyang reaLi very shuai n cute.. oh gosh.. heez.. oh yar..todae.. had debate.. haha.. long awaited one.. haha.. oh wells.. it wus horrible.. i tink i did badly.. haha.. haish.. anewae my team lost.. "due to unconvincing n lack of points".. oh wells.. it wus definitely crappy.. i din even understand wat i wus toking abt.. n i wus kinda trembling.. Din tink i wld let my stage fright get to me again.. Oh wells.. todae met suhui.. she is dropping out of pj ler.. haish.. one less fren around.. very saddening.. so discouraging.. ppl ard me are giving up so faz.. haiz..but nevertheless.. i will try my best.. n nt let anething affect me again..

hmm.. the dae before ysd.. tok to cow.. haiz.. sorry cow.. I juz realised tt no matter wat.. rite now i juz cant giv up.. n leave him in the lurch.. true.. i cant help much.. he wun listen.. but itz nv in my intention to see him down n out.. it hurts.. i will try.. fer as long as i can.. to do as much as i can.. but i will nv giv up either.. =/ haiz.. sorry cOw~ u gotta take gd care of ur health k? rest more pls??

oh wells.. gotta go touch up on my EOM ler.. then go watch jue dui superstar.. haha.. hopefully jUnyaNg will get in.. *wish hard* he iSh sOo shUai!! *heheh* tata~

another "craBby" entry.. >.<

haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish... *long long sigh* these arent sighs of relief.. if oni they are.. haish.. I always tell them nt to sigh too much.. very bad fer health.. will die faster de.. hah.. i tink i m dying soon den.. Been sighing alot recently.. =( haish.. bu dui wor..=S *sheesh*

Seriously speaking.. I reali cant get used to this stupid life of mine.. itz lyke.. nth ever goes well fer me.. Fer those whu are close to me.. you all shld noe.. haiz.. why huh? Do i reali deserve such a life? Made lotsa wrong decisions.. thus worsening the situation of my life.. haiz.. Now here i m in the arts stream.. when i truly belong to the sciences.. hah.. how stupid can i b? I still rmb.. after the o lvls.. i swore to sum of my frenz tt unless i m dead, i wun take ane more arts subjs in the future.. hah.. but yet, being rash n stupid.. i made the decision fer sumone.. n ended up me suffering the consequence.. How dumb can i be? hah.. Sumhow.. i can nv becum lyke the typical arts students.. nt even close.. hah.. i juz cant adapt.. itz the air that surrounds them tt kinda made me feel lyke avoiding.. Orite.. no matter wat.. ther is still sum beautiful souls in the arts stream.. nevertheless.. but itz oni "SUM".. i can even count them wif my fingers.. my klassmates are part of them of cuz.. =D heez.. i miSs the science stream.. ppl ther are more sociable.. more sensible.. more friendly.. more lovable.. at the very least.. they dun tok wif the same sarcasm n bitchy-ness as sum arts students does.. haiz.. juz wish tt.. i wun becum lidat.. i DUN WAN!! hah..

Juz now toking to junhaO.. nw kinda feeling beta ler.. itz great frenz lyke him whu kip me persisting on in my life.. great frenz whu motivate.. whu cares..=) thanks ppLz..=D

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Sheesh.. todae is supposed to b a short n hapi dae de... But cuz ysd i din slp well again.. ended up being very slpy in sch.. haish.. oh wells.. let's start off toking abt todae first.. hmm.. had netball during PE.. heheh.. damn fun lorh.. but kip crashing into helmi n clement.. very sweaty!! haha.. oh wells.. it wus great fun.. long time nv play netball ler.. =/ hmm.. had gp compre test todae.. tough.. cldnt conc again.. haiz.. oh wells.. guess i wld juz flunk it badly.. =( haish..

Orite.. haiz.. things haf been happening so faz tt i cant stop or prevent it.. shucks.. this sux.. ysd nessa showed me sumthing in sch.. kinda shocked me very badly.. then i went hm to cry.. Why am i crying again?! haiz.. stupid lah.. itz none of my business anemore.. why shld i even care? why?!?! cow ish rite.. i m dumb.. i m stupid.. haiz.. guess i m too softhearted ler? i duno.. it juz hurts to see things becum lidat.. all i wan is fer him to b hapi.. but yet.. i cant help now..=(

oh wells.. juz now before i left sch.. nessa wus toking to me.. i juz kinda started tearing again.. den cindy walked past.. n asked "whu bullied u? tellme! damnit!" she nearly made me burst into tears on the spot..haiz.. oh wells.. shldnt tink so much ler.. i m tired.. reali tired.. all i can do ish juz pray fer him.. =/

140805

hmm.. first of all.. muz wish my gd gd fren yvonne "hapi bdae".. hmm.. oh wells.. this morn i woke up damn early.. cuz ster asked me to mit her at 920.. I din slp much ysd.. my back hurts badly.. cuz of the sunburnt.. very painful norh.. can die..=( oh wells.. met annas on the wae to the mrt station.. he wus on his wae fer floorball training.. soo sporty.. haha.. well.. me hao bu rong yi made it on time.. oni to find tt ster overslept..*abish* well.. then.. me went lib mit hong.. haha.. then when ster came.. we all started mugging.. haha.. me.. juz kinda slacked.. reali no mood norh..=( oh yarh ya wen came to join us cuz her frenz were so damn noisy..

during lunch.. we went to take neoprints.. haha.. very very very very nice.. haha.. =D muz frame it up.. haha.. nxt time muz take more!! oh yarh.. then suz outside the lib, gt the marie france bodyline roadshow.. yawen initiated tt we go fer the free fat analysis.. haha.. n so we went..wus in marie france bodyline waiting fer our consultant.. then me took hong's phone n started taking pics again.. haha.. wo hen zi lian sia..=Pp geez.. oh wells.. the analysis is tt i m underweight but i haf gt fats! haha.. wOo~ haha.. i m nt thin.. haha.. =Pp oh wells.. muz build more muscles.. haha..=D todae had lotsa fun!! haha.. =)

oh wells.. me go watch tv liao.. take caree pplz.. =)

130805 *sunburnt*

heyhey.. nth to do.. juz felt lyke blogging.. haha.. oh wells.. ysd slpt kinda late.. but i woke up kinda early todae.. haha.. so nt lyke me.. Used to pig out till late afternoon de.. haha.. Well.. then me went to the swimming pool wif sis.. Now kena sunburnt badly.. *ouch ouch* sheesh.. shldnt haf stayed so long.. but it wus great great fun.. heheh.. oh wells.. though i din do ane studying todae.. but i had fun.. so whu cares? =Pp *bleah*

hMm.. less than two mths to promos ler.. hmm.. or rather to b more specific.. 46 more daes to my promos exams.. haha.. time reali flies manx.. oh wells.. hopefully, i can get pass it safely bahx.. let's hope tt my results allow me to stay bahx.. ysd, my civic tutor asked us to set our targets.. heheh.. i tink i m kinda crazy de.. me wrote dwn.. A fer maths.. B fer geog.. B fer econs.. A1 fer chinese.. B4 fer GP.. almoz impossible.. mE always drming of the impossible.. lolz..

oh weLLs.. tml gona start TRYing muggin ler.. haha.. reali hafta try.. =) gd luCk to me..=) ppL.. muz study hard too.. n take care of ur health=)

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Heheh.. finali it iSh fridae ler.. Waited sho long long.. haha.. Todae ish a stupid dae.. Ysd, or rather this morn.. i slpt at 1 am.. Wus watching the release of results for Superstar.. haha.. hell lorh.. i wus crying awae.. haha.. though i dun reali tink derrick has the potential.. but see him cry.. i oso cry.. very sad fer him.. haish.. he is cute lah=) haha.. ended up nt doing my gP portfolio.. heheh.. slackerish attitude.. *bleah*

Oh wells.. todae i very blur lorh.. haha.. forgot my specs.. Wus so blind fer the whole dae.. haha.. assembly sux totally.. we hafta "learn" writing testimonials.. haha.. so stupid.. hmm.. well.. gp wus fun.. the debate wus an eye-opener.. haha.. hMm.. after sCh, went stadiUm to run again.. haha.. timing improved alittle.. but still nt enuff.. i m still training hard.. oh wells.. itz tough.. haha.. after tt, went swimming pool wid ster n hong.. haha.. nearly drown as usual.. haha.. Wus lying in the pool n chatting wif ster.. haiz.. reali miss the past.. the worries-less sec life.. the freedom n happiness i had..oh yar..no shuaiges ther again..hai ster so sad.. haha.. Den me went sports hall.. trying to look fer my bro.. but cuz i wus half blind.. haha.. cldnt spot him among the many badminton players.. heheh.. *sheesh*

oh wells.. tml going drowning again.. haha.. no lah.. juz wana sun tan.. haha.. as though i nt dark enuff>,< take lotsa care pplz~ i misS eUu all='(